A Little Calmer

IUI nurse Keri called at 4:30 after she’d talked to Dr. Silverberg about the 2nd beta.  She said that although the results not rising by 67% isn’t ideal, 286 is still an excellent 2nd beta .  She said to look at it as if I had had a regular first beta around 50-75 – in that case, a 286 is a strong 2nd beta.  Her theory is that probably more than one embryo initially implanted, and now only one is continuing to develop.

Thank you everyone for your encouragement.  I’ve never made it this far before.  You know, I never considered what it would be like after the BFP.  That’s what we all are aiming for, right?  Once you see that BFP it’s all a home run, right?  Think again, my sisters.  IF just finds new and creative ways to continue the torture.

 And thanks for the beta calculator links!  I actually had a rise of 58%, and if you calculate it out, I’m actually doubling every 72hrs, and some do double every three days instead of every two.   Dr. Silverberg wants to repeat the HCG on Thursday, so somehow, I’ve just gotta stay sane until then.

I’m praying God will bring back that peace I started all this with.  I felt like He was telling me it’s my time, He had heard and answered my prayers.  Now because it’s not going according to my plan, I’m losing my faith.  So I’m reclaiming that peace!  And His promise from Psalms, that “He makes the barren woman to be the happy mother of children.”  He still knows the desires of my heart, He’s still here with me.  I can make it through this.