Things We’ve Learned at 10 1/2 Months

It just doesn’t seem real that Baby Girl is closing in on a year.  Time has fast-forwarded – just at the most amazing time, when I most want to savor every minute.  It’s amazing how much she has learned – and taught us – in just 10 short months.  Here are just a few things we’ve learned:

If you teach a ten month old to point to her eye and nose, she’s going to stick her finger in your eye and nose.

Ten-month-old fingers are very small and can fit really far up mom’s nose.

The more you really want your ten-month-old to go to sleep, the more likely she is to suddenly develop a case of restless legs syndrome.

Ten-month-olds do not like to be swaddled.

Ten-month-olds LOVE cats, dogs and car keys, especially the remote car door opener.

I knew I should've sprung for something bigger than the smart car

Taking your car keys back from a ten-month-old will result in a complete meltdown.  And no, those Fisher Price keys will not suffice.

Ten-month-old baby spit shorts out remote car door openers.

Remote car door openers are expensive to replace.

Dogs love ten-month-olds right back.  Food falls from them like manna from heaven.

Cats do NOT like ten-month-olds back.  Just hearing a hollered “Kee!  Kee!” strikes fear in the heart of the cat, who will probably live the next two years on top of your cabinets and refridgerator.

Even the fastest and savviest kee will sometimes lose a fist full of fur.

Check it out! The fur comes off!

Cartoons for 10-month-olds are weirdly mezmerizing.  You can get a “stoned” effect if you watch them for too long.

It’s amazing how much you can get done during a 45 minute nap – and how little you’ll get done the rest of the day.

If you leave an Oreo unattended, your ten-month-old with only two teeth will find it, gum it to paste, and paint the carpet and the living room furniture with it.  All in the span of time it took you to pee – even though you had the door open and could see the back of her head the whole time.

You've been holding out on me, mom! Yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum!!!

The car seat is the mortal enemy of the ten-month-old.  No matter how amusing or creative you might think you are, there’s nothing you can do to distract the ten-month-old from the fact that they are imprisoned in the car seat.  All items offered to soothe and amuse the ten-month-old will be promptly flung into the space between the car door and the seat.

Don't let the smile fool ya. I'm about to hurl this bottle at yo head if you don't let me outta here.

The ten-month-old will get their revenge on you for imprisoning them in the car seat.  You’ll forget all about the items they’ve thrown between the car door and the seat – until you open the door and they all pour out and promptly roll under the car.  Or even better – down the driveway and into the street.

Ten-month-olds are masters of velcro.  Just give up and buy the shoes with buckles.

That velcro baby shoe you’re missing?  It’s between the car door and the seat.

Ten-month-olds are the most fastinating and adorable people in the whole world.

 
 
 
 
 

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, everyone!

Christmas with Troy’s family was wonderful!  They spoiled baby girl rotten. 

Guess whose stocking is in the middle?

 
Davie and Gramma
 

Check out my new wheels!

 
Davie LOVES her new walker.  She’s not walking freely yet but she goes everywhere with her walker!  She can even get un-stuck if she walks it into a corner.  She has taken a few random steps on her own but not more than three in a row and she did that only once.
 

Check out all the bells and whistles on this baby

We were able to meet with Troy’s childhood friend Ben and his wife at Ben’s mom’s house.  Ben and Julie have a six-month old baby girl, Charlie, that they had after IVF, too.
 
 
Davie is eating great!  She ate turkey, stuffing, green beans, a roll, mashed potatoes (her fav!), pasta salad and baked mac ‘n cheese.  Then she ate again when we got home!

My party animal

 
Her hair is getting longer!  She won’t leave bows on anymore.
 

there's some wild bed head goin' on there!

 
After playing with all her new toys, she needed a nap bad!  But all the beds are really high in the house (we were staying out in a camper trailer and her pack ‘n play was out there) so we covered the dogs’ bed with a quilt and put her down for a nap.  She fit perfectly!  And in my defense, Marilyn (MIL) has an industrial size washer and dryer and I had just washed the dog bed and taken it out of the dryer.

hopefully she'll never find out

 Sunday we had to head home ’cause Troy had to work Monday.

Monkey is Awesome!

 

Finally asleep ... moments from home

 
 
 Monday night we had Christmas with my family in Austin.  Chris, JoAnn, Cayle and Andon all came over and Mom & Dad stayed with us.  We had chili and opened presents.  We gave Andon 10 vintage military matchbox vehicles we found on Craigslist that were still in the package from 1986.  He LOVED them!  Military matchbox are his favorite, and it was neat to find models that they don’t even make anymore.  Troy bought Cayle his first Swiss Army knife.  For Davie we got a car riding/push toy, a dragon toy that she can drop balls into, a V-tech kitty that rolls on tile and “talks” to encourage babies to chase after it.  Troy also bought her a Vermont teddy bear with a bib that says “Davie Ann’s First Christmas.”  Davie discovered Troy’s white elephant gift from my work Christmas party:
 
 

We start 'em early in Texas ;)

 
The next day Mom, Davie and I caught some after-Christmas sales.  I just love a great sale on clothes for baby girl!  She’s 10 months but her 12-month size pajamas are tight between her shoulders and toes, so I stocked up on some 18-month size pj’s.  She’s just so long and her toes end up poking out of the feet!
 

mmmm, pretzels

 For the rest of the week, Davie, Cayle and Andon went home with Mom & Dad.  They went to the Children’s Museum in Waco and spent the rest of the time building forts in the living room and playing war.  Davie was even promoted to sargent - Sargeant Baby Cakes!  All went well until an unfortunate incident where she stole all of Andon’s bullets and shot him in the leg.  Apparently the army needs to work on it’s teamwork skills.

moments before the mutiny

At the museum with PopPop:
 

I'm jealous! I wanna go to the children's museum!

 
All tuckered out after all the excitement:
 

Such an angel when she's sleeping

 
Davie turned 10 months today!  
 

Ten Months Today!

 She has so much personality now!  She’s so funny.  And soooo cranky when she gets tired (just like mommy!).  She took her first steps two days ago, three in a row away from Nana (Nana was going to take her car keys away from her ;) .  When she sees us coming to take something away that she wants to keep, she stuffs it in her mouth and starts crawling at light speed away from us (always a pain when it’s toilet paper … it’s almost impossible to get it all out of her mouth).  She’s trying to talk now, too.  She says “Pah” for PopPop, “bah” for ball, “bahbahbah” for bottle, Dadada, Mamama and Nana.  She says ‘haaaay” for hi, which always amuses people in the grocery store.  I swear, it’s impossible to shop fast with her, everyone wants to stop and say hi to her!  She continues to be such a little helper.  Helping with the laundry and the cooking are her favorite!

 

Once we get it all out we'll know what to cook

 

Gotta get that last sock

 
 
Saturday afternoon we took her to her first movie, Sherlock Holmes 2.  Aaaand, now we know she can’t sit through a movie yet.  Mom mostly played with her in the lobby while Dad, Troy and I took turns relieving her and watching the movie.  I have to admit, I really didn’t get into the first one, but I really enjoyed this one.  I guess I need to go back and watch the first. 
 

Not sure she's into the whole movie thing

Sunday we went to church with my folks.  Today I was off but Troy had to go back to work.  In the evening I left Baby Girl with my folks and headed back home to Austin.  Mom will bring her home Thursday and we’ll keep the boys Thursday night.  I know it’s only two days, but I can’t wait for Thursday!  We have some shirts for the boys that didn’t make it here in time for Christmas.  They’re MouthMan shirts, one is a shark for Cayle and a dragon for Andon.  I hope they like them!
 
I can’t believe Davie girl is just two months away from her first birthday!  We’re going to get her picture taken in a dress I had my first birthday taken in!  I think we’re also going to do pics of her in a tutu eating a cupcake.  Should be a nice mess for the photographer (and us!).  I found another dress on etsy that I’d LOVE to get for her 18 month pics.  It’s just so princess-y and adorable!
 

I want this dress!

 

Have a Happy New Year, everyone!

Don’t Watch It

Months ago I idly threw the movie The Other Woman on the Netflix queue.  It said something about a new wife trying to connect with her difficult step-son;  not anything I was super-excited to see, but I like Natalie Portman.  And when I work the long night shifts it’s nice to put something harmless on in the background while I pass the time.

I didn’t expect a movie about infertility, miscarriage, death of an infant from SIDS and the death of a marriage.  Gaaa, this is horrible.

December

Davie’s first Christmas is almost here!  It’s been a busy month!  We have all her presents bought, but I still need to get a couple more things for my SIL’s and nephews.  Usually I’m one of those early shoppers, but here I am rushing to get it all in before next week!  Yeah, NEXT week!

Poor Baby Girl has had an ear infection, her first one.  We took her to a different pediatrician here in town (we were taking her to one closer to my office).  I LOVE the new doctor!  I do feel a bit guilty for making the change, but I’m so much happier with the new office and doc.  Davie is taking an antibiotic (her first prescription!) and acetaminophen.  Nights are rough, she gets all mucousy and wakes up choking and coughing. :(   It helps if we let her sleep on our chests so she’s elevated.  My poor baby, I wish I could just help her blow her nose.

But other than the mucousy nights, we’re all doing great!  We had family pics taken the other weekend, and they went great!  I was hoping Troy’s family could be in the pics, too, but his folks are having a lot of medical problems and traveling isn’t easy for them.  We’re planning to do her one year pics in Midlothian (where they live, close to Dallas), so I’m hoping everyone will be able to be in them.  I’d love to have a generational photo with Troy, his mom and Davie Ann.

We’ve been really enjoying our Sunday School class and church!  I’m so excited we’re getting to know everyone better.  The Christmas party was a lot of fun.  Even Troy had a great time and he’s shy in new places and around new people.  We went to my work party, too.  It was good to catch up with all the people who work at other offices that I’ve worked with in the past.  We did a gift exchange, and I got a lump of coal!  Literally!  Someone in my office is a smartass, is all I’m sayin.’ ;)

This Thursday Troy and I will go to my folks and spend the night (they’re half-way between Austin and my in-laws).  Friday we’ll head on up to the the inlaws’ and spend a few days there.  I can’t wait for them to see how much Davie has grown!  Sunday we’ll have Christmas morning with Troy’s family, then we’ll leave late afternoon and head home (Troy has to work Monday).  We’ll meet up with my family and have a little Christmas of our own at home.  Then I’m off  ’til Wednesday!  I’m going to soak up tons of Baby Girl time! :)

I’m still struggling with those last BFN’s.  I’m trying to move past it but I’m just so sad they all died.  I miss Lila so much.  It’s hard, but it’s getting better.  I want to lose some weight before we try again.  We could try right away in January, but I think I want to wait until after Davie’s first birthday in March.  It just seems right.  And it feels good to have a plan.  Get some weight off, enjoy Baby Girl, celebrate her first Christmas and birthday, then look to trying again.  In church on Sunday there was a couple a few rows in front of us who had an infant baby girl they recently adopted.  My heart just longed to experience new life again!  The desire and longing have only grown.  I think about embryo adoption a lot, it seems more like the right choice every day.

I know God has a plan for us.  And I know He wants us to have peace and joy.  I just keep praying that the two align!  It’s always the waiting and hoping that’s the hardest. 

I hope everyone’s holidays are wonderful!  Merry Christmas!

We coordinated outfits! Yay!

 

butt ... is ... so ... cold ...

 
(the snow is from a snow machine.  it’s still in the 60′s-70′s here :) )
 

Bro Chris, SIL JoAnn, Cayle, Andon, me & Troy & Davie, Mom & Dad

 
 
 

just too much cuteness!

 

Catching Up

Hi!

almost got close enough to taste the camera!

 

Yeah, I’ve been AWOL.  It’s a combination of life gettin’ busy and needing a break from the conception obsession (that’d be a good name for a (in)fertility blog).   I’ve thought of you guys often, and I’ll be catching up with you guys all week.  But I had to break the funk, move on.  It surprises me how deeply I was sucked right back into it.  I thought it’d be easier this time around, since we have Davie, but it was just as hard – in a different way.  Davie is a real comfort and joy and having her makes it better in some ways.  But it’s harder, too – when those embryos don’t take, I know just exactly what I’m losing.  I feel like a failure not just as a woman, but as a mother.  Ah, the joys of finding new levels of heartache in this journey.

But enough on that … for now, anyways.  Time to soak up family, friends and the holidays!

My brother Chris turned 36 on Nov. 18th.  He and his wife JoAnn rented an RV and we all went camping at the Renaissance Festival in Plantersville, Texas.  We had so much fun!  The only draw-back was because of the drought, we couldn’t have any campfires this year.  I love the smell of the campfires on the cool air!  The four of us got there the first night and set up the camp.  JoAnn’s baby bump is so cute!  Troy and I slept in a tent.  I love sleeping in the outdoors! 

Does bringing your own toilet really count as camping?

 
 

The next night, Mom and Dad brought Davie and my nephews, Cayle and Andon.  My brother’s friend since childhood, Mark, arrived with his wife Jen and their three kids:  Jacob, who is Cayle’s age, and their two year old twins, Andrew and Lauren.  Dad carried Davie in a backpack carrier we borrowed from friends (I think they got it at REI).  She LOVED it!  She was so excited, she’d kick and squeal!  People would look around for the squealing baby, and would just laugh when they saw her!  She wasn’t scared by any of it, she had a blast!  We had a great time chowing down and people-watching. 

Pop, Nana and Davie Ann

 

Where are reins on this thing?

 
 

men with funnel cake are sexy

 

Mark, Jen and Andrew

 

Cayle, Andon and Jacob

 

too much excitement

 
 

More big news:  Davie now has TWO teeth!  She doesn’t like to show them, but they are so tiny and cute!  I found the Leap Frog activity table on Craigslist for $15.  It’s hardly used and has all the parts.

I can feel my teeth with my tongue!

 

I just found treats in my table! Woot!

 

teeth like to chew on nipples

 

The next week was Thanksgiving.  Chris and JoAnn hosted it at their house, and JoAnn and her mom made the turkey.  Everything was so good!  JoAnn’s brother, her sister and her boyfriend all came, too.  We took Davie’s walker, and Cayle ended up pushing her in a circle around and around the living room.  She had such a blast!  She screamed and hollered for more! 
 

The next day Troy had to work, but Mom, Dad, Andon and I put up the tree.  (Cayle was addicted to a video game and we couldn’t drag him away.)  Davie was glad to help, too.  She mostly tore up packing paper as we unpacked decorations and ornaments.  We got the tree up, made a “Winter Wonderland” on top of the entertainment center, and a nativity on the fireplace.  I still need to hang the stockings (gotta get some of those stick-on hooks).

Yay! Decorations to eat!

 

Davie-proof ... so far ...

 
I got the fence hardly used on Craigslist for $40!
 

Our "Winter Wonderland"

 

Nativity on the mantle

 

Sunday was actually cool out!  We broke in Davie’s new coat.  It’s an adorable red coat with ruffles and a matching red cap with a bow on the side.  I got her all bundled up and she just sat there for a few long seconds just trying to figure out if she could still move!

..can't ... feel ... arms ...

 

I can't bend my elbows. Would you wipe my chin?

 
Poor baby girl had a rough holiday weekend. First,  Mom had set her on the table right in front of her and was feeding Davie cottage cheese.  Davie got so excited (the girl loves her some cottage cheese) that she jumped and slid right off the table!  Mom caught her mid-air but it scared the crap out of all of us!  None of us got much sleep that night.  We all watched her all night long.  She didn’t have a single bump or bruise the next day, thank goodness!  Troy was watching her the next afternoon, and caught her with a leaf in her mouth!  It must’ve come in on someone’s shoe.  He got the leaf out of her mouth and set it on the coffee table.  Davie went for it and ended up hitting her chin on the table!  She has a little red bump under her chin, and she cut her tongue on her teeth.  It was so heartbreaking to see a little trickle of blood come out of her mouth!  The next morning we were getting ready for church, and Davie was playing on the floor of the bathroom.  I thought she was behind me and I reached out to shut the door to the closet, but she was actually trying to get into the closet and I bonked her head with the door!  Arrrgh, it was so horrible.  Again, it didn’t leave a mark, but I feel like such a bad parent!  Poor baby girl might not survive us all.
 
Then I was folding laundry and looked up to see this:
 

it seems safer in here ...

 
I swear, she got in there by herself!  She probably feels safer in there!
 
Next up, we got a LOTTA Christmas shopping to do!  Baby girl is ready for some walking/riding toys and some new shoes. :)

Aftermath

I’m doing alright.  Mom kept Baby Girl at our house for an entire week.  An entire week of Baby Girl is very good therapy.  I know it was hard for my dad to be without his girls all week!  I appreciate the sacrifice he and my mom made by having my mom stay with us for a whole week straight, while Dad was home alone in Gatesville. 

Davie has TWO teeth now!  And she is quite tired of everyone trying open her lower lip to see them or sticking fingers in her mouth to feel the teeth.  She just waves her head around ’til we leave her alone. :)   She turns her nose up at baby food now – she’s all about the people food!  Her new favorite is cottage cheese.  She just inhales it!  Oh, and waffles, too!  And mashed potatoes – yum!

I still feel a little shell-shocked at the failure of the last two attempts to get pregnant.  Alternately I feel angry, then depressed and so sad, then confused.  I tucked the picture of my last two perfect hatching embryos into the folder they gave me for the FET protocol.  Then I tucked the folder away in the sad drawer in my closet that is stuffed full of protocol folders complete with pictures of little embryos that I’ll never get to hold.

I’m not confident any more that we will be successful in our efforts to grow our family.  Yes, I do believe God knows the desires of our hearts, and I believe He has good plans for us.  But I don’t know if His plams for our lives is the same as our desires for our lives.  All I can do is pray He will give me the patience to wait for His timing, or that He will change my heart so that my desires line up with His plan.  I know it’s the only way I will find peace in the long run.  I want that peace, so I can accept and enjoy all I have now, so I won’t waste my life longing for what is not meant to be.  My prayer life is not what it should be lately, and I know I’m feeling betrayed, and I’ve lost my confidence to claim His promises.  On the other hand, I also feel like a child who didn’t get what they wanted and is now pouting and ignoring my parent out of spite.  I know I’m just coming to terms with the fact that this was not our time.  The loss is hard.  I’ve had the wind knocked out of me.

All I know is for now, I still have a deep longing to have another child, to add to our family, to experience bringing a baby into the world again.  So I will keep praying until we are successful or until I feel my heart change.  For now, I think we will wait until February to start the next IVF attempt.  That will give us time to re-fill our health spending card and to get through the expenses of the holidays.  Also, it means we won’t be ready for the embryo transfer until March, after Davie turns one.  I feel now like maybe I should have waited until after she was one to even begin trying again.  I really wanted to be pregnant by now, but I think now maybe I was pushing our luck, and I just wasted the last two tries.  I don’t know why I feel that way.

Embryo adoption has still been on my mind.  I know it’s something that Troy is still thinking and praying about, but it feels right to me.  I’m not pushing it, just letting it take time to sink in for him, to see if it starts to feel like an option he is comfortable with.  I know without a doubt that I will love an adopted embryo baby just the same as I love Davie – it will be my baby, the same as Davie is my baby.  My only fear is that when they are older they might be unhappy that they weren’t born to their genetic parents.  As much as I want another baby, and as much as embryo adoption feels right to me, I want the very best for the baby, too.  But I’m thinking that this is a fear any adoptive parent must face and come to terms with.  Any thoughts from you who have gone through adoption, embryo adoption or egg/sperm donation?

Moving on …

We have a new foster kitty, Sheldon.  He’s an adorable black and white male with a poufy round face.  I think he was a stray, but he’s so loving!  He comes running every time he sees us and rolls right over for tummy rubs.  He and Moo have made fast friends.

Next weekend we’re going on a family camping trip!  My brother Chris’s birthday is on the 18th and he wanted us all to go camping at the Renaissance Festival as a family.  Not only are the festival and the camping fun, but the people-watching is the best there!  I know Chris has been wanting to go camping with his boys and my dad for long time, but his wife JoAnn is just not the roughing it type (much like my mom).  So they’ve rented a massive RV, so we can take some of the comforts of home with us. :)   We’re also taking tents, though.  I can’t wait!  I hope Davie loves it.  And that it doesn’t rain too much!  For some reason, it’s always muddy whenever we go to RenFest.

Money is really tight this month.  The FET set us back a bit.  My cutting back on my part-time job hours has hurt us, too.  But I don’t doubt for a minute that it was the right decision to have more time at home with Davie.  Being away from her on the weekend was just tearing me apart.  I’m so much happier now that we have the weekends together and are going to church regularly as a family now.  I’m praying God will show us how to be better stewards of all He has given us.  I’ve started couponing and bargain shopping with a passion.  Although I’m nowhere near Extreme Couponing levels, I’m averaging $30-50 in coupons per shopping trip, so it’s slowly adding up!

Work is good.  Stressful and challenging, but I have to admit, I really am loving it.  We’ve had lots of computer network issues lately, and I’m looking forward to getting those problems taken care of.  I think Ellen (my co-worker) and I are working really well together.  She’s a great tech, and I appreciate her expertise.  And she’s got a funny side that has totally suprised me.  I think having someone to share the work load with has really helped her start to enjoy her work and has taken a lot of the stress off her, letting that humor come out.

I am seriously digging the Walking Dead and The Big Bang Theory.  I’m glad Big Bang is in syndication now.  I can watch the old ones and laugh just as much as the first time I saw them!  They really hold up.  Mom is usually with us on Thursday nights and we watch NCIS and NCIS: LA with a glass of wine after baby girl has gone to sleep.  Troy doesn’t care for cop procedurals but even he is addicted to those two shows now!  I keep trying to watch Once Upon A Time but I think it’s going to be too in-depth for me to keep up with.  Does anybody know what Snow White did to the witch to make her hate her so much?  I’m so confused.

Earlier Troy ate half a bag of blue cotton candy that the nephews left at our house this past weekend.  Now he’s tossing and turning in bed and threatening to throw up.  Gaaa, what a sensitive stomache.  He’s worse than Dude, our French Bulldog that throws up EVERYTHING (and then eats it again).  I keep telling Troy he must be in-bred like Dude, which he doesn’t find near as funny as I do.  And really, who eats blue food?  I never eat anything blue, on principle.  It just seems like a bad idea for edibles, in my opinion.  I really hope he doesn’t throw up on the white sheets, gah.

Not Our Time

The blood test came back negative.

A day later, I’ve just begun to bleed. 

Five babies have died inside me in less than two months.

I don’t know why, I really thought this time was the time.  The blasts were were the strongest of the bunch.  They were already hatching. 

We have two more tries, and we’ll start again in January or February.  That’s not far away.  But I need to get through the holidays first, take a breath, process.  I know the spirit will eventually rally, but for now, the heart is broken.

 

I’m the Germist Woman, Ever

So, to recap the last two weeks,
  • I had major dental work twice in the two weeks, with a week of antibiotics in between.  The last procedure was the evening before the transfer, so I didn’t take any pain meds during the healing process (which took another dang week)
  • my boss threatened not to give me the day of the transfer off, waiting until an hour and a half after the thaw order for the embryos was put in before finally agreeing to let me off
  • Troy and I were hit by the worst 24hr stomach bug the day before the transfer.  Fortunately, it was all out of my system by the time of the transfer
  • Three days after the transfer, just as my ribs stopped hurting from all the vomiting, I caught a crazy sinus infection.  Sinus infections are annoying, but usually I just complain my way through them.  But this time, the headache was so bad I actually threw up – at work.  So embarrassing.  I left work and went to the doctor, and he basically said he couldn’t do much for me since I might be pregnant.  So I went home and threw up all night. 

Today I’m much better.  And the best news of all of this is, baby girl didn’t catch either the 24hr bug or the sinus infection, which is a miracle since mom caught them both.  The worst part is, while I was throwing up the last two days, I thought maybe, maybe, I’m pregnant and this is the start of it.  Now I’m not throwing up any more, and I’m actually a little sad about that.  Go figure.  Cruel virus, either way. :(  

On the FET front, no bleeding so far.  Still taking Crinone and Estradiol twice a day.  Haven’t tested, not once.  Trying my best to hold out for Sunday. 

Yesterday was Baby Girl’s EIGHT MONTH BIRTHDAY!  How can my tiny baby be eight months old already?!?  To celebrate her new milestone, she cut her first tooth!  It’s her right bottom one.  And, she waved bye-bye for the first time!  And, she climbed two stairs before I caught her!  STOP all that growing up, now

first tooth

 
Davie Ann has become such the big helper!  This week she helped sort the bills:
 

I got this one for ya. And BTW, I look like a boy in these pajamas. Just sayin.'

 
She helped reprogram the TV:
 

Ha! You thought I couldn't reach the remotes, but you were WRONG!!! Bwahahaha!!

 
She helped put away the dishes
 
 

Hmm, all these pots look better out here on the floor

 
She was such a big help putting away the groceries
 

I'll just check this one for freshness

 
And she got the laundry all sorted in no time
 

Can you believe these were all just thrown in a box? So messy.

 
She helped put the dogs up when we went out.  Why is my daughter wearing overalls with no shirt or shoes?  Because her daddy dressed her, that’s why.  (Note the liquor bottles above the dog’s heads.  Yep, we’z classay.)
 

Hillbilly girl wants to know who put the dawgs up??

 
 
 
And she was glad to help when I caught the sinus infection
 

Here, I'll share one of these with you.

 
Once I got all the wet Kleenex out of her mouth, she helped remind me to take my Crinone before bed:
 

Are you SURE this isn't the end it goes in?

 
After all that excitement,  she was ready for Halloween!  We went to the fall festival at my parents’ church Saturday night.
 

First lollipop with PopPop

 
She caught a duckie and won a teddy bear
 

These suckers don't know I practice this one in the tub every night!

 

I R E A L L Y want to pull mommy's earrings

 
Monday night, Mom, Davie and I went and met up with my nephews, Cayle and Andon, and went trick-or-treating with their mom, Alison.  Troy got off work later, so he stayed home and handed out candy.  Moo was nice enough to help Troy with the basket until we put the candy in it.
 

Moo loves Nana's basket. Nana does NOT love Moo's fur in the basket.

 
Cayle was a Special Ops dude
 

I don't know how the poor kid could breathe

 
Andon was a character from G.I. Joe.  I pathetically have no idea which one.
 

Troy says it's Snake Eyes, or something like that

 
Davie reprised her most adorable little witch costume.  Doesn’t she work it well?
 

Moo got it right, Halloween IS all about the basket!!

 
And there’s my life for the past week.  Wonderful and icky all at the same time.   Thank you all so much for all the wonderful well-wishes and good lucks. :)    I’ll be catching up on everyone’s blog tomorrow, but for now, I’m the only one still awake, so I think I’ll go snuggle down in bed with my hubby and Moo, dogs in their bed on the floor, and Davie all snuggled in her crib at the end of the bed.  Good night, all!

 

 

 

All Aboard!

Our two embies survived thaw and are on board!  One was fully expanded, the other was still re-expanding.  We got the pics of our blasts around noon, and we could see the larger one was already hatching.  By the time the transfer took place about 1:15, it was hatching even more!  More of the cells were extruding from the shell.  The other still hadn’t fully re-expanded, but Dr. Silverberg said he could still tell the cells were alive because they were light colored and they had seen them expanding since the thaw.  He said when the embryo doesn’t survive thaw and dies, the cells turn really dark and clump together.  I’m hoping and praying they’re both already attaching!

It’s been a rough couple of days.  First there was the drama on Friday where my boss threatened not to let me off on Wednesday.  Then I had to get permission to leave a little early on Tuesday to go to the dentist to have those three cavities on the top filled (which actually wasn’t a problem, my boss was really understanding). 

Only … Monday evening I got home and mopped the floors, did laundry, the usual stuff, then worked on a cedar chest I’m re-finishing in the garage.  Troy got home and washed the dogs, then we had dinner and watched two new series, Once Upon a Time and Grimm.  I think we’re going to check out Once Upon a Time again, but probably not Grimm.  The last few Monday nights we’ve been watching the new Spielberg series, Terra Nova, but it’s been off while the World Series has been going on.  We were in bed by 9:30m, and I laid in bed and read blogs ’til about 11.  So you know, a regular, typical night in the American household (Davie was with Mom Monday night).  Only …

About 1am, Troy stared tossing and turning hard and woke us both up.  Next thing, he was in the bathroom, blowing chunks out of both ends.  When the storm had passed, he started shaking hard with chills.  Finally about 2 I got him all wrapped up in bed with Sprite and water by his side, then I went to get a little sleep in the spare bedroom.  Until about 4 am, when I woke up with horrible stomach cramps, dripping in sweat, waves of nausea flowing over me.  I just made it to the bathroom in time.  Both ends – fortunately, I threw up first, then the runs.  Followed by bone-chilling shakes.  No matter how many blankets I piled on, I just couldn’t get warm.  I’d drift off to sleep for about 15-30 minutes, only to wake up burning hot, drenched in sweat … lather, rinse, repeat.

So of course, I had to call in.  I called my boss several times to apologize.  I feel so bad.  I can’t believe the timing, it couldn’t have been any worse.  I finally stopped throwing up and the runs stopped about 10am.  At 3, I did one of the hardest things ever – I drug my sorry, puked-out, nauseated, dehydrated ass to the dentists office and endured three fillings.  It sucked ass, my friends.  I came home and passed back out.

Needless to say, my second call (after grovelling to the boss) was to the Texas Fertility Center.  My nurse checked with Dr. Silverberg, and they assured me that having the stomach bug the day before would not lessen my chances of success.  They said they would call me first thing in the morning, though, and as long as I didn’t have fever and wasn’t actively throwing up, they would thaw the embryos and we’d be good to go.

By this morning (Wednesday), I felt much better.  My ribs ache from the vomiting and I’m tired, but overwise, not too much worse for wear.  But whatever that bug was, it has to be one of the most brutal 24 hr things I’ve ever gone through.  The cramps were horrendous.  I found out from my IVF nurse that it ran rampant through the Texas Fertility staff, too!  My girlfriend Judy said a lot of people at her office got it, too.  She actually got it twice in two weeks!  I can’t imagine.  I got up early before the transfer and scrubbed the whole house, every toilet, sink, tub, counter and floor.  Then all the trash went out.  I stripped every bed and all the sheets, blankets, towels and clothes went into the wash on ‘sanitize.’  All the dishes went into the dishwasher, even if I had already washed them in the sink.  Then I took a long, hot shower. 

Then Mom & Davie arrived, and we were off to the St. David’s Women’s Fertility Surgical Center.  My girlfriend Judy met us there.  Troy couldn’t be there ’cause he’s almost out of time off, and we’d like to take a day or two around Christmas to go see his family, so I asked him to save those days.  Judy kept Davie while my mom went into the surgical suite with me.  We watched my two pretty embryos on the screen and chatted with Dr. Silverberg.  It was over in a flash!  My first ever Frozen Embryo Transfer was complete!

Mom brought me home and put some chicken in the crock pot for us, and finished up the laundry for me.  I got to kiss on Davie a little more, then they left to stay at my brothers’ tonight.  For one, it’s hard for me to be around Davie and NOT pick her up.  For another, I didn’t want to expose her or mom to the house too much until I’m sure any chance of them getting the bug is gone.  As horrible as it was for me and Troy, I’m sure it would put a baby in the hospital.

I’ve been lying around the rest of the day catching up on the DVR.  I watched a little Sons of Anarchy, American Horror Story and Extreme Couponing (WHY can’t I figure out how to get diapers for free???).  When Troy got home we ate chicken and rice and watched NCIS.  Love me some Jethro and Abby!  Now Troy’s playing Batman on the PS3 and I’m updating the blog before we crash out again.  Tomorrow Davie, my mom and my nephews will be here to stay with us, and I can’t wait!  It’s been a long road to here, but things are lookin’ up, getting better.  Life feels good. :)

A Brand New Barclay

It’s a Girl!!  My brother Chris and SIL JoAnn are having a girl!  I’m so, so happy for them!  Chris has two boys from his first marriage he adores, and he’s always wanted a girl.  My older nephew, Cayle, will be a little disappointed – he really wanted us to have a boy, and now there’s another girl on the way.  But my younger nephew, Andon, wanted a girl so Davie would have a girl to play with.  He’s such a sweetie.  They both are!  I’m so happy Davie Ann will have a little girl cousin to grow up with!  It’s so exciting!

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