Noooo

This morning I woke up and there was blood everywhere, soaked through my pad and my underwear.  I took a pee test anyways, even though I knew the answer would be negative.  Not even a hint of a line.

I was sad, disappointed, but I knew we had two more tries based on the new insurance policy.  They told me that in May.  So when I got to work, I asked the financial counselor to check on our coverage for a frozen embryo transfer.

And she came back with, I think you’ve used up all your tries.

I know we’ve been so lucky so far.  I know it’s selfish to hope for more.  But why, why, why would they tell me we had three more tries total if we don’t?  WHY would they lie about something like that?

Why would God crush our EVERY hope in ONE day?