Yeah, I’ve been AWOL. It’s a combination of life gettin’ busy and needing a break from the conception obsession (that’d be a good name for a (in)fertility blog). I’ve thought of you guys often, and I’ll be catching up with you guys all week. But I had to break the funk, move on. It surprises me how deeply I was sucked right back into it. I thought it’d be easier this time around, since we have Davie, but it was just as hard – in a different way. Davie is a real comfort and joy and having her makes it better in some ways. But it’s harder, too – when those embryos don’t take, I know just exactly what I’m losing. I feel like a failure not just as a woman, but as a mother. Ah, the joys of finding new levels of heartache in this journey.
But enough on that … for now, anyways. Time to soak up family, friends and the holidays!
My brother Chris turned 36 on Nov. 18th. He and his wife JoAnn rented an RV and we all went camping at the Renaissance Festival in Plantersville, Texas. We had so much fun! The only draw-back was because of the drought, we couldn’t have any campfires this year. I love the smell of the campfires on the cool air! The four of us got there the first night and set up the camp. JoAnn’s baby bump is so cute! Troy and I slept in a tent. I love sleeping in the outdoors!
The next night, Mom and Dad brought Davie and my nephews, Cayle and Andon. My brother’s friend since childhood, Mark, arrived with his wife Jen and their three kids: Jacob, who is Cayle’s age, and their two year old twins, Andrew and Lauren. Dad carried Davie in a backpack carrier we borrowed from friends (I think they got it at REI). She LOVED it! She was so excited, she’d kick and squeal! People would look around for the squealing baby, and would just laugh when they saw her! She wasn’t scared by any of it, she had a blast! We had a great time chowing down and people-watching.
More big news: Davie now has TWO teeth! She doesn’t like to show them, but they are so tiny and cute! I found the Leap Frog activity table on Craigslist for $15. It’s hardly used and has all the parts.
The next day Troy had to work, but Mom, Dad, Andon and I put up the tree. (Cayle was addicted to a video game and we couldn’t drag him away.) Davie was glad to help, too. She mostly tore up packing paper as we unpacked decorations and ornaments. We got the tree up, made a “Winter Wonderland” on top of the entertainment center, and a nativity on the fireplace. I still need to hang the stockings (gotta get some of those stick-on hooks).
Sunday was actually cool out! We broke in Davie’s new coat. It’s an adorable red coat with ruffles and a matching red cap with a bow on the side. I got her all bundled up and she just sat there for a few long seconds just trying to figure out if she could still move!